Depressed.......?

Im a freshman in college, I live with my single mother. My sister is graduating from Syracuse this year. My father doesnt or should I say rarely sends money for help. We just got a bill from pseg and its sooooooo high. My mom began to cry and I feel soooo bad and i get depressed about it because she's such a nice person and I know that it's hard for her- my father basically ruined her life. Ugh he's such a dirtbag. Pray for me that we hit the lotto tonight please.